Can You?

Tell me, can you help me? Help me fix the mess that I make. I'm so hopeless, this mess like more tangles day by day and I don't know anymore how to make it work again. Or can you just kill me already? Cause I know when I try to solve this mess it will just hurt "them" and myself. So, let me go and bury me now.

My World My Rules

Can I change it? Change the world where I live. Changing it to something wonderful.
The world without fear, without scream in your minds, without sins locked into your body.
I can not face it, my fear, the scream in my minds and the sins that I make everyday. They will know someday, the me who they see day by day is covered by blood.
Blood of sloth, blood of money, blood of lust, and blood all of the remaining sins.
I am no longer pure, no longer have place in heaven, that's why I want to change this world.
To make my own existance not fading by the time I didn't live again in this world. A world where I can rest in peaces.

My Heaven My Hell

I really wish that we could turn back time, cause the ghost inside me start to crawling outside to the world.
Getting stronger time by time and nobody notice it, perhaps they just pretending to not see it.
The mask that I'm wearing can not longer hide my face, the world already know my face it seems.
I want to give up, I want to run away, far far away. To the place where I can be myself without hurting anyone beside me.
Like Elsa build her own castle in the mountain snow, so do I will build my own castle in the realms that nobody can be there, cause they not died yet, unlike me. This is my heaven my hell.